We set out later Friday night in my attempts to avoid the nightmare that is Dallas traffic. This was perfect because it put us right at the Texas interstate bluebonnets right at dusk aka the magic hour for photo taking. I haven't taken Jude's picture in bluebonnets since he was about 6 months old. He's wearing a Thomas shirt, there's ketchup on his chin, but it was one of those moments that makes you smile because you spontaneously left the highway for something beautiful. Why can't life have more of those moments? If I could be honest, I don't need a whole lot out of life. But if my life could be filled with more moments where I took more back roads or ignored my schedule more, I would be a happier person.
The past month I've really started to feel just free from all the anxiety that has plagued me so so much over the past few years. This is nothing short of a miracle. I'm not sure what to say other than Christ is my merciful intercessor. I have no doubt that he has lead me to a great counselor, a great doctor, and an extremely supportive boyfriend because His greatest joy is my freedom. The kind of love he extends to us is so complete and all encompassing. And you know what else I've learned- its ok to need help! It's ok that I needed 5 months of counseling to get back on track. It's ok that I am taking things to help me. It's ok to admit to people who care about me that I need prayer and am struggling. For some reason, it took me a long time to realize that the Body of Christ applied to me. That when I needed an encouraging word, it might come through the mouth of someone in the Church. Or that when I needed a hug, Christ might hug me through one of His children in my Bible study group. I just never realized that, and it really should be so obvious. Thankful for that lesson! Regardless, Christ is healing me and I just am happier and able to enjoy Jude and my kiddos and my family and Jimmy more. It's one of the biggest blessing of all. And the more this 'freer' me comes out, the more these little moments pop up. And I'm loving it!
Anyway, we got to my parents late Friday. The thing I love about being with my parents is that there is never a schedule. Never anywhere I have to be. Never a time I need to do it. We woke up. Ate pancakes. Got dressed. Jude played outside all morning. My mom and I had a long, long lunch at La Madeleines just talking. That night we grilled hamburgers and West Virginia hotdogs. We took Jude on a walk in the woods (paths through the neighborhood). And just enjoyed the moments. It was perfect. There are a lot of pictures, I know. But it was a great, great weekend.
The Year of the Lord’s Favor
because the Lord has anointed me
to proclaim good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners,[a]
to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor
and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn,3
and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
to bestow on them a crown of beauty
instead of ashes,
the oil of joy
instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
a planting of the Lord
for the display of his splendor.